Should I or not?

Should I or not? Send flowers to my dear girl, Frances on Valentines Day? Without signing my name, that is, and without revealing my identity. It may be pathetic that I am still not over her, despite the fact that I will never have her. But my heart constantly tells me to hold on. What's a few hundred dollars, if only I could win her heart? I've been debating about the flowers for a long time and I still haven't reached a conclusion. Valentines Day is just around the corner. Dare I send something to her? Or maybe not.

Damn. As much as I like her boyfriend, I can't help but feel extremely jealous at this point in time. I stress on the fact again and again that GOD is NOT fair.

Its unfair that he is so much more talented than I am, smarter than I am, and more good-looking than I am. Its no wonder Frances fell for him. But I've waited for so long - for about a year, to be precise. I know he only started liking her mid-year or so. And I waited so much longer. It just isn't fair.

I read her Friendster profile everyday. BOTH profiles.
1) http://www.friendster.com/user.php?uid=6376160
2) http://www.friendster.com/user.php?uid=11570247

Stare at her photos everyday. Is that called obsession? No. Its called love.
Read the testimonials her boyfriend wrote for her. I tried to feel happy for the both of them. Its not working. If she weren't so freaking sweet everytime I saw her, I wouldn't be struggling right now. Its just that everytime I'm SO close to forgetting her, she just HAS say 'Hi' and smile her incredibly cute smile. Shit.